The calm silence of the night is when all the thoughts flood in. So much said, so much unsaid. I have no idea what to do with any of it.

I didn’t sleep tonight. Last night I had nightmares and I was yelling in my sleep again. It happened the night before too. I thought I was getting better, and maybe I am but it’s just another crossroad.

Sometimes I just want to be told the answer instead of having to search for it or be left in silence wondering…..always wondering.