Category: Mental Health

• Beauty Is In The Eye Of Someone Else

  I have always struggled with my weight. Even as a child I was overweight. My weight has fluctuated throughout my life where I’ve lost and re-gained large amounts. At my highest weight I underwent bariatric surgery. I dropped 150 pounds within 7 months post-op, but then I got pregnant and the weight loss stopped. I…

  thecountesswolf

  April 27, 2022

  Mental Health, Self

  abuse, anorexia, bulimia, dysfunction, eating disorder, EDNOS, self-esteem, self-worth, trauma, weight, weight loss

• It’s Okay

  I started writing about one of the shit storm periods of my life, and I had to stop. Some of it is still too raw. I’ve talked about it in therapy, but I’m not ready to put it out here for all to see. I planned to write a book about those times, and I…

  thecountesswolf

  April 22, 2022

  Mental Health, Self

  abuse, CPTSD, destruction, domestic violence, dysfunction, financial abuse, love bombing, memories, narcissism, NPD, reflections, self-care, self-esteem, self-worth, therapy, toxic relationships, trauma, women writers, writer

• Sometimes

  Sometimes I want to scream into the void until I lose my voice. Scream until I can’t feel a damn thing. Scream until I forget every terrible thing that’s ever happened to me and every terrible thing I’ve ever done. Sometimes I want the ground to open up and swallow me out of existence. Would…

  thecountesswolf

  April 16, 2022

  Mental Health, Self

  authentic self, destruction, dysfunction, poetry, reflections, self-esteem, self-worth, trauma, women writers, writer

• Self-Care

  Sometimes self care is going to the cemetery to yell at your relatives.

  thecountesswolf

  April 6, 2022

  Mental Health, Self

  family, self-care, therapy

• Home Is Where The Heart Breaks (Part 1)

  I’ve decided it would be best to break down the telling of this section of my life into parts; for ease of reading, and for ease of my mental state. I’ve spent the past week thinking, reflecting, processing (with my therapist and by myself), grieving, crying, feeling every emotion, and feeling completely numb. I locked…

  thecountesswolf

  March 25, 2022

  Mental Health, Self

  abandonment, abuse, attachment, childhood, CPTSD, dissociation, memories, therapy, trauma