Tag: destruction

• It’s Getting Bad Again

  I’ve struggled with depression for most of my life. I remember having thoughts of not wanting to be alive starting when I was 7 or 8 years old. Those thoughts have never completely gone away. I was prescribed an antidepressant for the first time when I was 26 years old. It helped some but ended…

  thecountesswolf

  May 18, 2022

  Mental Health, Self

  destruction, dissociation, reflections, self-care, self-esteem, self-worth, suicide, therapy, trauma, women writers, writer

• Nothing

  None of this matters. Burn it all down. Burn away the blood marked walls I punched until my hands shattered But not before metal tore flesh in a final goodbye note. Everything is empty. Burn me to ash, let the wind scatter me into oblivion.

  thecountesswolf

  May 11, 2022

  Creations, Mental Health, Self

  create, creative, creativity, destruction, dissociation, dysfunction, poetry, women writers, writer

• It’s Okay

  I started writing about one of the shit storm periods of my life, and I had to stop. Some of it is still too raw. I’ve talked about it in therapy, but I’m not ready to put it out here for all to see. I planned to write a book about those times, and I…

  thecountesswolf

  April 22, 2022

  Mental Health, Self

  abuse, CPTSD, destruction, domestic violence, dysfunction, financial abuse, love bombing, memories, narcissism, NPD, reflections, self-care, self-esteem, self-worth, therapy, toxic relationships, trauma, women writers, writer

• Sometimes

  Sometimes I want to scream into the void until I lose my voice. Scream until I can’t feel a damn thing. Scream until I forget every terrible thing that’s ever happened to me and every terrible thing I’ve ever done. Sometimes I want the ground to open up and swallow me out of existence. Would…

  thecountesswolf

  April 16, 2022

  Mental Health, Self

  authentic self, destruction, dysfunction, poetry, reflections, self-esteem, self-worth, trauma, women writers, writer