Tag: dissociation

• It’s Getting Bad Again

  I’ve struggled with depression for most of my life. I remember having thoughts of not wanting to be alive starting when I was 7 or 8 years old. Those thoughts have never completely gone away. I was prescribed an antidepressant for the first time when I was 26 years old. It helped some but ended…

  thecountesswolf

  May 18, 2022

  Mental Health, Self

  destruction, dissociation, reflections, self-care, self-esteem, self-worth, suicide, therapy, trauma, women writers, writer

• Nothing

  None of this matters. Burn it all down. Burn away the blood marked walls I punched until my hands shattered But not before metal tore flesh in a final goodbye note. Everything is empty. Burn me to ash, let the wind scatter me into oblivion.

  thecountesswolf

  May 11, 2022

  Creations, Mental Health, Self

  create, creative, creativity, destruction, dissociation, dysfunction, poetry, women writers, writer

• Home Is Where The Heart Breaks (Part 1)

  I’ve decided it would be best to break down the telling of this section of my life into parts; for ease of reading, and for ease of my mental state. I’ve spent the past week thinking, reflecting, processing (with my therapist and by myself), grieving, crying, feeling every emotion, and feeling completely numb. I locked…

  thecountesswolf

  March 25, 2022

  Mental Health, Self

  abandonment, abuse, attachment, childhood, CPTSD, dissociation, memories, therapy, trauma