Tag: reflections
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Disorder
It always starts with the same thought: “I need to lose weight.” I’ve known this for a long time. My entire life, I’ve struggled with my weight. Lose, gain, lose, gain, lose, gain….on an endless loop. Logically, I know how to lose weight properly by eating healthy and exercising, limiting fat, sugar, etc. But my…
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Peel The Onion
“Peel the onion” refers to allowing the different layers of self to peel back, revealing the hidden parts so they may emerge.
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Self Care
How do you define self care? Self care can take many different forms and it’s important to take time for yourself.
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Cutting Cords
Cutting the cords that bind my mind Light the match Set it ablaze, watch everything burn Nothing more than ashes, No meaning, no ties. Darkness, silence. Freedom.
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It’s Getting Bad Again
I’ve struggled with depression for most of my life. I remember having thoughts of not wanting to be alive starting when I was 7 or 8 years old. Those thoughts have never completely gone away. I was prescribed an antidepressant for the first time when I was 26 years old. It helped some but ended…
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Silence
The calm silence of the night is when all the thoughts flood in. So much said, so much unsaid. I have no idea what to do with any of it. I didn’t sleep tonight. Last night I had nightmares and I was yelling in my sleep again. It happened the night before too. I thought…
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It’s Okay
I started writing about one of the shit storm periods of my life, and I had to stop. Some of it is still too raw. I’ve talked about it in therapy, but I’m not ready to put it out here for all to see. I planned to write a book about those times, and I…
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Sometimes
Sometimes I want to scream into the void until I lose my voice. Scream until I can’t feel a damn thing. Scream until I forget every terrible thing that’s ever happened to me and every terrible thing I’ve ever done. Sometimes I want the ground to open up and swallow me out of existence. Would…
Countess Wolf 